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I want to be able to do all the things I've never had the courage to do like sing and dance and create without inhibition and without a soundtrack in my head telling me over and over that I'm not doing it well enough.

I have always loved to sing. But I'm too afraid to open my mouth in front of people, even my family (most of all my family). My life has been one big homage to mediocrity. It's comfortable here and I don't trouble anyone. Except now it's getting kind of tired and I'm wanting to shock people more and more.

Since starting university, I have learnt much more about myself and the world around me than in the 17 years previously. Studying art is more than just painting and lolling around oil-paint spattered looking blaze as a naked person poses in front of you. That is however, a small part of it!! I have learnt about history, and the political environments throughout this century. I have learnt about the people who broke through conventions and rules to make new rules that await rupture and break again. I feel as though I am apart of this avant-garde bunch. How can I just stand by as the majority of society revels in it's outdated traditions?

So when I grow up… I will probably have immersed myself in the culture that was once shocking. In the traditions that I helped bring about. It will be my turn to oppose those who seek to disrupt my peace. I'll just be doing my bit in this crazy mixed up society.

So! The lesson is - get everything pierced and tattooed. Sing and dance in the street. Play your music REALLY loud (as long as it isn't crap). Without this new stained, holey, loud group of people, we can't move forward.

And that's even more scary than society right now.